MYA's phone diaries: August in VA

it's 1:15 am on the fifth of the eighth and all I can think about is electricity...

Toronto, Ontario

..anniversaries never came to me naturally. speaking the same code annually. it's beautiful to remember the connections that we've kept alive. but, circuit boards break when they're overloaded. and not all are wired to work the same way. there are paths inside each of us, that only we can greet. our organs have constitutions that we couldn't describe to others how to iterate. like today, how I couldn't, even if I wanted to, engrave the schemes keeping me tongue-tied and awake. it comes in ebbs and flows like alternating waves. laps around the sun come around once a year, still, those aren't the things I often celebrate. August always reminds me of magic in a lifetime, powered by morse sparks of main power lines, that no gimmick can encapsulate or retrace. just like how lightening never strikes twice in the same place.

MYA's phone diaries: Lotus blossoms in August

I took Sunday up on her offer and spent the afternoon somersaulting with lotus blossoms, butterflies, herons and great company. 8 out of 10 essential organs were revived. I hope you are flying too, wherever you are. 

MYA's phone diaries: the morning after.

....even in silence, I could listen to you for a lifetime. because your stutters are like string lights. each breath, a torch, showing me that the most beautiful cities in this world can reside in one place:

y o u.

MYA's phone diaries: TARS to ∞

Minutes chase east and the hours west, 

hands overlap 22 times a day.

Toronto, Ontario • 07. 28. 15 

And how many sun and moon rises and sets,

have we watched 4 times in array?

Still we break glass radiuses to carve space.

Draw maps that cross worlds for the other to trace.

Roam the night to learn the shape of every star.

And we're closer than ever which can feel so far.

Like outlets with hot wires,

even when facing spires,

plugged in both the sky and ground,

never doubt, you too, are always found.

We are running to meet at a skyline,

to hone a home by design,

for dreamers who don't live by clocks,

made to sail the seas than stand just on docks.

MYA's phone diaries: 'Through the Sky's eyes....'

 ...and darling, that's what two windows side by side are for. To see the wings of a plane out of one, and clouds from the other. To hear all the instruments in accents instead of only one every time. To see the globe in continents rather than visits to cities on toll. To be so small and to touch it all. 

But you live chasing pinholes when the world dims by your side. Teeter between half empties and half fulls, when you could flood the glass with all elements for the ride. Stuck on remote play down below, when you can fly channels 30,000 ft high.

And if you knew how your details, from dirt to stars, could be mirrored and burn bright in these eyes for a whole lifetime... Then again, I can't blame you for not knowing what it's like for the sky to look through you as the universe flipped inside out - like it's all encompassed in your one alone.


The Möbius Strip

Konnichiwa from Tokyo!

I am trying to make laughing rooms a thing here but so far no one is buying it. On another note, I really dig this city a lot and I am always amazed by the inventiveness and resourcefulness of the Japanese. Time here over the past year has made me reflect a bit about ideas, innovation and creativity... 

Akin to a painter's blank canvas or a musician's blank tape, I have to come to appreciate that film and memory cards, unmarked by light, are by far two of the most beautiful "possessions" I can seek to own. They are the very representation of 'infinite' possibilities to me. And I think one of the worst feelings when you are trying to express yourself through an artistic medium, is the gnawing voice that tells you that the content you unearth is not of substance or doesn't add anything to what already exists. 

Often times 'we' talk about how there are no longer original ideas -that, to me, is essentially the equivalent of saying that all the people that could be conceived, have been. Photography, music and various other art forms are the very proof that 'realities' betray and ally with each other endlessly. Doubt is inevitable, natural and maybe even healthy... but, it can, as many say, also be a killer. However, the crux of creation lies in honesty in the process and being immersed in the now, and part of that is embracing doubt but not letting it be a distraction. It's often fruitless being more wrapped up in what something will mean in a time that hasn't yet arrived or that has passed - both of which, we are not present in. And I am learning that the birthplace of the textured, coloured, weathered and most lush stories and experiences is the middle, and without presence in it, we are merely living stagnantly in a static countdown to a finish line...

Art- in its various forms- is a mobius strip of how we experience the world around us through kaleidoscope lenses - our own and others'. From the instant we find ourselves faced with that view, our own perspective is then altered, whether we enjoyed that experience or not. As an audience and now a participant in that journey, whether we intend for it or not, we enter a stage where the dichotomous elements breakdown-  mind/body, essence/appearance, subject/ object and spirit/matter. In other words, every photograph, song, painting, poem or form of artistic expression is an infinite portal- a window- to other windows onto the world. We need them all. Without these portals and in the absence of any one of them, we are limited in how we access the range of (so-called) realities present. A spectrum that cannot be captured by any one moment of (creative) expression and/or experience.

So when do we get that one photograph that will capture it all? That album that's going to make it the only one to take with us on that island far far away? Or that painting that we will stand in awe of and never want to move away from? It's simple, never. The answer will change moment to moment, person to person - that finite breaks and builds faster than we can blink. Think of many of the painters, musicians or artists who passed on without being 'justly' appreciated during their time (will they ever be?!) and we're still learning how to give them due credit. It was never a question of time-less-ness but rather, time-full-ness.

In other words, the middle is the 360 degrees that rolls on. It's all fleeting, but the beauty, in chasing a so called "transparent depiction/experience of reality", or in arriving at "the original" experience, is that it will never fully arrive because the spectrum extends and far outpaces our own capacity to take it all in. Every interpretation, past, present and future, beyond a single moment in time and space, is part of the ever evolving whole - no matter the angle, the colour scale, the instruments and the extent of its 'enhancement' or lack thereof.  That goes from trying to figure out the absolute root to the absolute finish. 

The idea in stumbling across these middles- these windows, was not to be trapped in their contents, their supposed meaning in a time that isn't their own, but rather to give us space to aerate and to look around. These middles can: raise our potential, expand our reach, take us to places beyond those that meet our eyes and minds... and, if are willing, bring others on that journey as well. Those are the moments that ought to be expressed, that are worth experiencing, witnessing and looking back on. You know, over the rainbow and in the "end"....

Can I get a window seat?

Tokyo from the sky. ❤

"A map says to you: Read me carefully, follow me closely, doubt me not...I am the earth in the palm of your hand." - Beryl Markham

Roy G. Biv: 400 - 700 nm

I am still reeling from Tame Impala's show in DC last night. Those who know me, know how much I love (live) music and how it's a huge source of joy and inspiration in my life and my photography.  In many ways music and photography tap into the same realms of light, space and time for me, and their simultaneous experience is an intensity that I very much relish in.

Summer is here and today I woke up in the mood to listen to some favourite bootlegs and live recordings that I have enjoyed over the years. Hope you are all having a beautiful Sunday wherever you are in the world.